freedom is not something to strive for, it is something we have always had

i could tell you all about my day, but i wont.

it was good, and i learnt something.

if you want to know more show some interest in me and i might just tell you

If i went to the docters they would simply i have some form of depression, but everything has its reasons and solutions, and i know mine, well at least teh reasons, and i think that atleast some of it will be resolved after christams, because ill have more information and ill be 18 so it will be easier to find them, the solutions, my real parents

WHY CAN I NEVER BE FUCKING HAPPY!!!!

What goes up must come down

my life at the moment seems as though its waiting for something to happen and untill that time its simply going to go round and round in a mundane circle. but the comes the realisation that i the circle can be easily broken and blah blah blah, this i already know all this, but what i dont get is why after breaking the monotanous circle of death i simply crash into even more depression. i went to london to fight for something i beleive in, i found hope in my futre eductaion by realising i can get to a good uni with my current course, and then i simply overeact to something and become instantanleously depressed again, maybe i have problems, well actually i know i have problems, but its going to be while before i can sort them out and i need to knwo im strong enough to get through this on my own, i have to many reasons to be hapy to be this sad
GAHHHHHH!!!! im hating myself for being so weak.