The ignition of anger

i think we all have one little thing that sets us of, that one thing that nags and irratates every nerve.

well unfortanutly mine is the one thing i can not avoid with out causing excessive pain, This one irration in particular is miener Vater, I dont exactly know why he effects me so, but some days every word he says makes me want to punch him.

I realise how bad this is, and luckly i have had enoughe controll to stop myself so far, how long it can last i do not know. I think that some of the reason may be that my mind keeps throwing the fact he's not actually my farther at me, even tho ive known this practially my whole life, But he might aswell be my farther, i mean he has raised me, tuaght me, inspired me and so on, so why can i no longer accept him as that.

This may result in me leaving Home sooner then my parents think, especially as dont wont to hurt them any more then i have to [they are very clingy people] This may just sort itself out in time, but im not going to rely on that hope...