well why dont you go pick up a pickupstick!

hm. pointless trip to hunstaton where we stopped for ONE hour, which most of was spent in the cafe, though it wasnt too bad i suppose, just blooody pointless, stupid grandma, doesnt matter how many of us say if she doesnt want to go somewhere, none of us do -_-


i will do a seperate post for my exam results...



i have recently come to realise that i have lost quite a few of the values that i held so dearly...
and yet i do not fell that changed
but today, in realising that, i have already begun to get them back...
i think i had lost sight of my horizon.. i had got entraced by the shiny things around me but now i turn my head to once again see the stars and to that ever moving horizon


right enough about my introspecting, or whatever you call it lol


the extra family members that have been here all week leave tomorow :]
they have not been to bad, the only ones that cuase trouble are charlotte (mine aunt, age 28) and mine grundmutter charlotte becuase she doesnt know the meaning of quite, i mean fairenough she's deaf without her hearing aids in, but still. and she is just really anoying, like you can feel her looking over your shoulder when your on the computer, she the type of person that has to tell you she's going to the toilette if your near her at the time, and like she also uses facebook on her phone like i do, so when she commented on my staus when she was sitting in the car behind i didnt really care, i was just going to comment back, but she then asks me if i got the comment, and in my head i was like WTF you weirdo, either talk to me or comment to me, dont do both, i mean she's nosy and childish [not in a funny way tho]
And my grandmother, Arrrggg :@ she constantly badmouths my grandad when he is actually quite awsome, tho he's hands are now swolen with arthrituss he has a really bad coth and genrally diteriating health, when she despite the bowl cancer, heart resets, hernier and so and so forth can still do basically everything but heavy lifting [which she wouldve never done in the first place] and walking far just sits there ordering evrybody about, not being able to interprupt what people mean, know nothing of the word subtle, and talks as loudly if not louder than charlotte, i mean she just complains about everything, she doesnt hardly ever say anything good, only when its in comparrison with someone else who did worse....
tho i enjoyed showing her my results as it puts me right at the top of the family for brains :]

luckaly as we live quite far away from her we get tret very well in comparrison to everybody else, i mean she helps everybody up there and is extremely kind and generuous at points but she's also ruining everybodys lives up there at the same time, i think my uncles kids used to spend more time at hers than his, she really doesnt let them raise there own kids.


anyway, rant over :]





while i know that i must continue to move forward, i know there are just some things i could never leave behind............
......i have only recently realised this, and now things may be harder...




i think.... more effort is recuired